Finally my brain function perfectly, that and my BP is stable, as long as there is nothing dramatic, since it function good, I can say egotistic that I can actually think ahead, almost read mind, and just narrow down the situation easily.
but the sad truth despite how smart we can get, we can never achieve our goal, actually some part of situations that we face sometimes, we unable to actually beat it, we surrender to it, although we keep trying to struggle go against it, but in the end, things can never go as we please, even if we have our differences, our background, we face problems, stuff that we cannot handle, even if you asked for help, none can help you, you set there hoping that one day all these problems would just go away, or slowly fade.
while actually all we need to do, is put away our ego, and just be optimistic, even although I got to admit, I don't believe there is good in this world even there is, and I really hate optimistic although I act like one but not in the heart.
however in a different none self-centered view, have you ever seen the less fortunate than you, people who are suffering deeper than what you do, of course a self centered would say "they dunno the pain I'm going through!", well that because you don't feel others pain, therefore you wouldn't understand, that others are suffering even greater than you do.
"The light at the end of the tunnel is not illusion .. the tunnel is!" took this famous quote for example
and this quote has tremendous meaning behind it, that the solution to the problems exists, and if you keep walking you'll get to the light, but been consumed by the problems creates an illusion tunnel that narrows your path, making it crowded and hard to walk on, tiring you so fast.
so the sad true
no matter how smart you are you can't fix the problems you suffering. However don't beat yourself over it.
remember, your life sucks, don't make it sucks even more. ;)
p.s. this works also for politics conflicts and stuff (not seen others problems, waiting for yours to go away)